This is the room
where I breathed
the air of fear,
for the first time.
I scrabbled
through
the yellow pages
of centuries
just to find that elixir
that might wake him
up from dead/ deep sleep.
I reached to the men
& women of expertise
to do something
to give something
to do anything
that might wake him
up from dead/ deep sleep.
Long at nights
I gazed at sky
and prayed.
I prayed.
I fasted.
I read.
I wrote.
I prayed again.
but, I prayed with a dark hope.
Afterall, he slept
dead and deep.
And the more I tried
to fasten him
to this world,
the more he was pierced
to slip quicker
into the other.
I lost it all.
(I lost it.)
I had just found it all.
I just had it all.
And then, I just…
lost itmuch before
then, it happened
Right here
Right in this room
the minute
I breathed the air
of fear
for the first time.
